as I amble down the concrete path
the pinkish sky fading into the abyss
a feeling of unexpected calmness washes over me
and I’ve never felt more unsure.
I can hear the distinct sounds
of unsuppressed laughter and celebratory chants
floating along the cool evening breeze
like a distant echo of a dream returned.
but I can’t join in.
my emotions are too conflicted to simply feel one.
instead, I enjoy the last few moments
in this little bubble
wandering into my favourite building
sneaking up to the fifteenth floor
and pressing my hands and face against the cool glass
taking in the perfect view of the capital city
I’m not ready to leave yet.
or maybe I’m just scared
of being alone and uninspired
and I’d rather stay here forever
then find out what happens after this
because the truth is
I don’t know.
I don’t know what will happen.
it seems like the entire world is watching
waiting for me to make a choice
and I’m not sure I’ll make the right one.
if this is adulthood
then I am not equipped.